And I was planning to simply do as I pleased, truth be told. I almost didn't come to see you at all. [This is not an easy thing for her to admit]
... I suppose I am just as tired of watching people die as the rest of you, and thought perhaps... it would not be such a terrible thing to die selflessly, for once.
[...well. On the one hand, he's a little too emotionally wrung out to really be upset with her and instead lets some of his body weight sag against her while he holds onto her. Instead, he lets his mind drift for a moment to think of those possibilities.]
...I hope you know how much I love you and how grateful I am you chose me. [This has been a very taxing week which means he's allowing himself to be a little more open than usual.] Humans are ugly and messy creatures but you trusted me anyway. I wanted to thank you for that.
Just...if you're really going to do this, be careful. You've fought a lot of things here before now, but I don't want this to be the week your luck runs out.
[Ah... and then of course he says that when she's already so vulnerable and tired, afraid that Higekiri will leave her and she'll be made into some grudge-filled demon, an enemy of humanity again.
Never before has she been so glad that he can't see her face; she presses it against his shoulder and he'll likely feel his shirt grow wet with moisture. In that time, Tamamo doesn't say anything.
She just nods quietly, forcing herself to breathe while she clings to him.]
[...he didn't exactly mean to make her cry, but he doesn't mind either. Instead, he tightens his arms around her, holding her steadily and resting his chin in her hair so she can cling and calm herself at her own pace. It helps that she can't see his face either. That way she won't have to know how utterly wrecked his own expression is right now.]
... You're such a cheat, Master. I should beat you to death for that.
[A deep, steady sigh, half mumbled against his shoulder. If she weren't so afraid that a sob would escape her, she'd be laughing instead. This is exactly why she hates being so vulnerable.
...]
I love you as well, you know? I know nothing is certain here, but even still... please do not die.
Thought you liked me because I cheat. [A friendly reminder, but he squeezes her close again, just briefly. He's not going to let her go until she's ready, apparently.]
...I promise that I won't leave you until you're ready for me to leave. I don't like leaving behind the important things. [He'd said as much earlier to Edelgard during the meeting. This applies to Tamamo, too.]
I think you like that I spoil you. [As if he doesn't like doing it himself and like his gifts aren't actually pretty cheap and dumb. He doesn't care. They're special to the two of them and that's what he remembers most. He listens to the way she calms herself but doesn't rush her to separate, nodding along with her words.]
I don't think I could even if I wanted to. I'm pretty content myself. [In this timeline, he's hers and she's his. That, too, is all that matters.]
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...are you going after him then? [Just. Tell him the truth, Tamamo.]
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At least if someone else dies, I will ensure it is not you.
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[A pause.]
And I was planning to simply do as I pleased, truth be told. I almost didn't come to see you at all. [This is not an easy thing for her to admit]
... I suppose I am just as tired of watching people die as the rest of you, and thought perhaps... it would not be such a terrible thing to die selflessly, for once.
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...I hope you know how much I love you and how grateful I am you chose me. [This has been a very taxing week which means he's allowing himself to be a little more open than usual.] Humans are ugly and messy creatures but you trusted me anyway. I wanted to thank you for that.
Just...if you're really going to do this, be careful. You've fought a lot of things here before now, but I don't want this to be the week your luck runs out.
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Never before has she been so glad that he can't see her face; she presses it against his shoulder and he'll likely feel his shirt grow wet with moisture. In that time, Tamamo doesn't say anything.
She just nods quietly, forcing herself to breathe while she clings to him.]
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[A deep, steady sigh, half mumbled against his shoulder. If she weren't so afraid that a sob would escape her, she'd be laughing instead. This is exactly why she hates being so vulnerable.
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I love you as well, you know? I know nothing is certain here, but even still... please do not die.
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...I promise that I won't leave you until you're ready for me to leave. I don't like leaving behind the important things. [He'd said as much earlier to Edelgard during the meeting. This applies to Tamamo, too.]
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[a bit of light teasing herself, as she calms her breath again]
... As long as you do not wish to send me away, I am content to remain with you.
[there are many timelines, after all. Tamamo thinks it's fine if she is selfish for a couple of them]
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I don't think I could even if I wanted to. I'm pretty content myself. [In this timeline, he's hers and she's his. That, too, is all that matters.]