[She's not wrong. He's squirreled himself away far off so that he can be away from everyone and decompress and stop being as neutral about this as possible. It doesn't surprise him that Tamamo finds him. But the bottle slides across the table and he looks at it before looking away. It's that kind of evening, and yet...]
...it's rare for me to not want to be right about something.
Because being right would damn Escha-san to death?
[She'll take the bottle back, then, uncorking it and drinking from the stem while she sits nearby -- not exactly close, but towards the wall, as if inviting him to use her as such. A soundboard for his thoughts.]
Yeah. [He seems comforted by Tamamo's presence at least and looks at the ceiling.] I would've been just as pissed if they voted for you, too. But...this changes the game entirely. We weren't supposed to vote for someone who was just defending themselves. How is that even fair?
[There's no comfort she can really give him. And while she worries that perhaps it is cruel of her, Tamamo refuses to shy away from their situation and all it entails. She merely takes another sip of her drink, staring off]
This seems to insinuate that all deaths are equal. Self-defense will not offer anyone protection.
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Meaning others might be even less likely to steer a trial to the truth, knowing the group will be forced to condemn them, no matter the circumstances.
And that's exactly how we're going to fall apart just like the last group. They're going to stop trusting each other, we're going to start pointing fingers, and people are going to sacrifice whoever seems to make sense for the sake of following the rules.
That's what pisses me off. [Among other things.] And Aizawa, who most likely murdered two people on his own, didn't get punished at all.
[There is some serious, murderous contempt in her voice before it rolls away, like a shark hiding under the water's surface. She takes another sip of her drink.]
His death was likely slow. It's not a satisfying conclusion, but he suffered in his last moments. It will have to do.
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We've lost the gentlest among us as well. Trials from here on out might turn into blood baths.
[That's not enough, and the slow growl in his throat indicates such. But he takes a breath to try and calm down even when he really kind of wants to punch something.]
So we don't let them. Some people were upset about Shiraishi's method and I know he's gonna be on my ass later for telling him to stand down, but it wasn't wrong. We have to stay focused, but we can't turn on each other without reason to believe someone is suspicious. How do you propose we do that?
Without resorting to killing those who won't stay in line?
[Well, since he's asking for the nicer methods:]
... For now, you have sway over most of our shipmates. Humans are more sheep-like than they want to admit -- and as your deductions are rarely incorrect, and you have gone out of your way to earn their trust, well.
They expect you to steer them to safety. That will likely cover you for at least one more trial.
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So it's a matter of keeping yourself at the head. [Like a king on a throne.] The higher your authority -- if you remain beloved to them -- then you wield the control. It's no coincidence that Shiraishi backed off at your demand.
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That will take care of the masses. It's the potential dissenters you will have to watch out for. Anyone who would turn against the group as a whole, and for their own skin.
[He gives her a look but he doesn't scold her because, like, that's fair. He understands her feelings on humans and he figures this is better than most reactions she could have. However, he listens to her and seems to consider that carefully.]
Skill is only going to get me so far. I can admit it's been helpful to have people's trust but...I'm still sometimes surprised how easily people really listen to me. [That's a whole other can of worms. Then again...] ...maybe I'm used to this. We were able to get through the Nonary Game because of the same methods. So...if I can stay ahead...[He's stuck on this now, thanks.]
I've been keeping track of some people I don't trust and having others watch them for me. If they won't listen to me, it's best that they listen to someone else who does. Isn't it? If that's how we're going to play this.
How could I forget that? [It's. Sort of a serious statement because he's still aware Tamamo's a dangerous sort of creature when she feels like it.]
The only time I think we should see people dead is if they're a detriment to the goal or they're possessed. And even the former is iffy because we should try to minimize the damage as much as possible.
...besides, I don't want you to take more unnecessary risks, especially just for something I think. If you do kill someone and they find you, they won't hesitate to kill you, too.
... You are not wrong. I don't enjoy dying, either -- I'd attack anyone who'd come for me, even if they were justified.
[It's probably not wise to admit that the bloodlust would hit and she'd try to kill half of her shipmates in a rage, and thus perhaps she is the worst bomb Junpei needs to keep from detonating, but.
The evening has been poor, and she has alcohol. Junpei has a terrible habit of loosening her tongue as well. Tamamo reclines in her seat, tails twitching]
Very well, I'll keep my claws to myself. Aizawa is dead, so there's no one I have a particular need to claw to pieces, anyway.
...anyone who would blame you has never faced a threat of dying in their life. [Just saying.] I don't blame Escha and I wouldn't blame you. Living is something that doesn't come easily, and I'm not letting someone else take that choice from me. I wouldn't expect anyone else to either.
[Plus he's definitely ended a few lives of his own, but whatever. There's a pause and he holds out his hand for Tamamo's glass. He could drink from the bottle she brought, but no.]
But I do need you to hold it together with me until we figure out what to do next. [...though.] Did you ever suspect him before now?
[Sliiiding that glass right over to him, quiet during the exchange as she mulls over his words. Hold it together, huh? Well she's good for that if nothing else, ha.
Her eyes glance up to him at the question]
No; I barely exchanged pleasantries with him, as I said during the trial. At best I noticed how he and Shiraishi seemed to have a good relationship.
-- But Escha-san was one of the few lives that I cared for, here. [Drumming her fingers on the table] Same as most of us.
[He takes a sip, small and slow and mostly to clear the tight and dry feeling in his throat.]
I plan to ask Shiraishi about that myself. [But he frowns.] It was hard not to like her. She was one of the few people on this ship that really didn't deserve to be here, and now she's paying the price for someone's mistake. It's...[A little too uncomfortable for him to think about, but it angers him.] I feel like there's something more that should have been done, but I can't figure out what.
Unless there is a rule -- or some sort of loophole -- that can still be exploited, I can't think of what might have gone differently.
[...]
I spoke to her already. If nothing else, she seems set in the choices she made. So I will respect her decisions, even if the outcome isn't what I'd hoped for her.
[Pulling the bottle close, and drinking directly from that. The burn helps to reorient her]
There is... someone waiting for her on the other side, after all. [Even in her foul mood, Tamamo's eyes grow soft] That was enough to put a smile on her face.
...I know there's nothing, but that doesn't--[He doesn't complete the sentence because saying "that doesn't stop it from hurting" isn't really helpful. He takes another sip from the glass while Tamamo takes the bottle.
If Escha is really alright with this, what else can be done? He has to respect her decisions, too, even if he'd change the outcome if he could.
...at the same time, though...]
...sometimes I think she was happiest with Logy anyway. It almost works out better because separating them felt too cruel. This shouldn't have happened to either of them, but together is better. [He lets his finger slide over the rim of the glass.] The distance could drive a person crazy, if you think about it.
[... Tilting her head some, watching Junpei once she puts the bottle down. Her tails continue to sway a dance behind her, though it's without their erratic energy. ]
And you, Master? Do you feel crazy, being this far away from your loved one?
[He's aware it's a risk to answer truthfully, but he's quiet as he taps his finger against the glass.]
...yes. Sometimes. [He may as well be honest.] But sometimes I feel crazy being near her, too. I think I understand exactly how Escha feels. She...told Dick and I that recently, Logy had to leave to go back to Central where he was from. He was gone for a long time, and she didn't get a chance to say anything to him. But right when they reunited again, she came here.
But he was from the wrong point of their timeline. So she decided she would do what it took to protect him.
[His answer doesn't seem to have offended her. Tamamo asked, and he receives a quiet smile for his troubles, along with a shake of the head at that last bit]
That girl has put up with so much, I'm impressed she didn't lose herself to despair... Well. Wherever their spirits end, I hope they remain together from here on out.
[Resting a cheek into her hand, oddly subdued and soft]
You as well, Master. You've already worked twice as hard as some of us, and this after being pulled from a similar dilemma. I pray your efforts will be rewarded in due time.
Escha isn't the type to lose sight of herself, even if things make her sad. She's stronger than any of us gave her credit for. I can't think of many people who would be able to accept a fate like this without much of a complaint.
[And yet he's worried because there's no way she's just 100% okay with this.] It's because it was a similar dilemma that I'm working the way I am. I have to get home to Akane and bring Carlos back, and...I made you a promise. I'm honoring that.
[Still, something about what Tamamo says reminds him of something.] I've heard a rumor that there's an island all of the deceased go to. I don't really know how to get there, but it's closer than we think. I think it might be why the ocean keeps rejecting us. Escha and Logy will be together...and Carlos and Polly should be watching over them.
[There's the mention of his promise, the one thing that binds them together, and Tamamo doesn't react -- doesn't even blink as she looks his way, before continuing on without comment]
-- An island? Interesting. So that is where the dead sleep.
[Her fingers drum on the table again]
Do you know if they will be saved? Carlos-san made mention that he would work to make it happen, but I don't know if progress has been made. There are many secrets aboard this ship that we must work through first.
I don't really know. I want to believe they will, but believing isn't going to be enough. We have to do everything we can on this side of things to help. [He sets the glass down.]
Oh. I think he'd like that. [And that's all he seems to say on that, already lost in his thoughts again.] It's possible, you just have to send him a picture.
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...it's rare for me to not want to be right about something.
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[She'll take the bottle back, then, uncorking it and drinking from the stem while she sits nearby -- not exactly close, but towards the wall, as if inviting him to use her as such. A soundboard for his thoughts.]
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[There's no comfort she can really give him. And while she worries that perhaps it is cruel of her, Tamamo refuses to shy away from their situation and all it entails. She merely takes another sip of her drink, staring off]
This seems to insinuate that all deaths are equal. Self-defense will not offer anyone protection.
[...]
Meaning others might be even less likely to steer a trial to the truth, knowing the group will be forced to condemn them, no matter the circumstances.
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That's what pisses me off. [Among other things.] And Aizawa, who most likely murdered two people on his own, didn't get punished at all.
[He was murdered, Junpei, but whatever.]
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[There is some serious, murderous contempt in her voice before it rolls away, like a shark hiding under the water's surface. She takes another sip of her drink.]
His death was likely slow. It's not a satisfying conclusion, but he suffered in his last moments. It will have to do.
[...]
We've lost the gentlest among us as well. Trials from here on out might turn into blood baths.
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So we don't let them. Some people were upset about Shiraishi's method and I know he's gonna be on my ass later for telling him to stand down, but it wasn't wrong. We have to stay focused, but we can't turn on each other without reason to believe someone is suspicious. How do you propose we do that?
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[Well, since he's asking for the nicer methods:]
... For now, you have sway over most of our shipmates. Humans are more sheep-like than they want to admit -- and as your deductions are rarely incorrect, and you have gone out of your way to earn their trust, well.
They expect you to steer them to safety. That will likely cover you for at least one more trial.
[...]
So it's a matter of keeping yourself at the head. [Like a king on a throne.] The higher your authority -- if you remain beloved to them -- then you wield the control. It's no coincidence that Shiraishi backed off at your demand.
[...]
That will take care of the masses. It's the potential dissenters you will have to watch out for. Anyone who would turn against the group as a whole, and for their own skin.
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Skill is only going to get me so far. I can admit it's been helpful to have people's trust but...I'm still sometimes surprised how easily people really listen to me. [That's a whole other can of worms. Then again...] ...maybe I'm used to this. We were able to get through the Nonary Game because of the same methods. So...if I can stay ahead...[He's stuck on this now, thanks.]
I've been keeping track of some people I don't trust and having others watch them for me. If they won't listen to me, it's best that they listen to someone else who does. Isn't it? If that's how we're going to play this.
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Should you find anyone who can't be controlled one way or another, are you willing to see them dead?
[Another sip of her drink, as she watches him over the rim of the glass]
Do not forget; I will kill them, if you think it necessary.
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The only time I think we should see people dead is if they're a detriment to the goal or they're possessed. And even the former is iffy because we should try to minimize the damage as much as possible.
...besides, I don't want you to take more unnecessary risks, especially just for something I think. If you do kill someone and they find you, they won't hesitate to kill you, too.
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[It's probably not wise to admit that the bloodlust would hit and she'd try to kill half of her shipmates in a rage, and thus perhaps she is the worst bomb Junpei needs to keep from detonating, but.
The evening has been poor, and she has alcohol. Junpei has a terrible habit of loosening her tongue as well. Tamamo reclines in her seat, tails twitching]
Very well, I'll keep my claws to myself. Aizawa is dead, so there's no one I have a particular need to claw to pieces, anyway.
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[Plus he's definitely ended a few lives of his own, but whatever. There's a pause and he holds out his hand for Tamamo's glass. He could drink from the bottle she brought, but no.]
But I do need you to hold it together with me until we figure out what to do next. [...though.] Did you ever suspect him before now?
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Her eyes glance up to him at the question]
No; I barely exchanged pleasantries with him, as I said during the trial. At best I noticed how he and Shiraishi seemed to have a good relationship.
-- But Escha-san was one of the few lives that I cared for, here. [Drumming her fingers on the table] Same as most of us.
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I plan to ask Shiraishi about that myself. [But he frowns.] It was hard not to like her. She was one of the few people on this ship that really didn't deserve to be here, and now she's paying the price for someone's mistake. It's...[A little too uncomfortable for him to think about, but it angers him.] I feel like there's something more that should have been done, but I can't figure out what.
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[...]
I spoke to her already. If nothing else, she seems set in the choices she made. So I will respect her decisions, even if the outcome isn't what I'd hoped for her.
[Pulling the bottle close, and drinking directly from that. The burn helps to reorient her]
There is... someone waiting for her on the other side, after all. [Even in her foul mood, Tamamo's eyes grow soft] That was enough to put a smile on her face.
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If Escha is really alright with this, what else can be done? He has to respect her decisions, too, even if he'd change the outcome if he could.
...at the same time, though...]
...sometimes I think she was happiest with Logy anyway. It almost works out better because separating them felt too cruel. This shouldn't have happened to either of them, but together is better. [He lets his finger slide over the rim of the glass.] The distance could drive a person crazy, if you think about it.
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And you, Master? Do you feel crazy, being this far away from your loved one?
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...yes. Sometimes. [He may as well be honest.] But sometimes I feel crazy being near her, too. I think I understand exactly how Escha feels. She...told Dick and I that recently, Logy had to leave to go back to Central where he was from. He was gone for a long time, and she didn't get a chance to say anything to him. But right when they reunited again, she came here.
But he was from the wrong point of their timeline. So she decided she would do what it took to protect him.
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That girl has put up with so much, I'm impressed she didn't lose herself to despair... Well. Wherever their spirits end, I hope they remain together from here on out.
[Resting a cheek into her hand, oddly subdued and soft]
You as well, Master. You've already worked twice as hard as some of us, and this after being pulled from a similar dilemma. I pray your efforts will be rewarded in due time.
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[And yet he's worried because there's no way she's just 100% okay with this.] It's because it was a similar dilemma that I'm working the way I am. I have to get home to Akane and bring Carlos back, and...I made you a promise. I'm honoring that.
[Still, something about what Tamamo says reminds him of something.] I've heard a rumor that there's an island all of the deceased go to. I don't really know how to get there, but it's closer than we think. I think it might be why the ocean keeps rejecting us. Escha and Logy will be together...and Carlos and Polly should be watching over them.
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-- An island? Interesting. So that is where the dead sleep.
[Her fingers drum on the table again]
Do you know if they will be saved? Carlos-san made mention that he would work to make it happen, but I don't know if progress has been made. There are many secrets aboard this ship that we must work through first.
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When did you talk to Carlos about this?
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Though I do plan on contacting him later this week, if it's at all possible.
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