It's bad timing, but at least it wasn't something that actually hurt you. You've still been helpful this week, Escha. And whatever slack that gives you, we'll pick it up, right? That's what we do.
["He fought back." He can't even say that confidently because he doesn't know. He nods in agreement to what Dick said and finds himself wishing he had something better to say or do to help.]
[ Escha pulls her legs close with her arms around them and presses her face against her knees. Honestly, she's had that thought already. If she's so out of it because of something she did with Logy, then...
[ She nods and has to take a deep breath first before talking. It does help, a little bit. ]
It's not that big a deal or anything. The Logy here is from before it, too...
But back home, Logy went back to Central, eventually. And I was okay on my own, but... When he came back I just thought - I don't want to be apart again... That's all.
No phones, no internet...and Central was pretty far from you, wasn't it? [He definitely gets it. Sometimes you just have one person you never want to let out of your sight again when you get them back where they belong.]
He was gone for a year. I didn't know that he would come back at all.
And then the day he did, I wound up here. And the Logy here is younger, and he's my partner, so I should have... [ Escha trails off, losing steam on the thought because even as she's saying it, she knows it's impossible. She knows there wasn't anything she could do. But she still has to finish it. ]
I should have protected him. He always protected me, and now - here - he was my junior.
[ dick knows she's aware she couldn't have actually done anything. he gets why she still says it. it's irrational. dick couldn't have done anything different for so many people, but that doesn't mean it doesn't haunt him all the same.
he really wishes he could offer her some comfort. ]
... You can't linger on what ifs, Escha. It won't help.
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It's bad timing, but at least it wasn't something that actually hurt you. You've still been helpful this week, Escha. And whatever slack that gives you, we'll pick it up, right? That's what we do.
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Right. Just keep relying on us and we'll make it work. [...] Logy will be okay. Carlos and Polly should be taking care of him.
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Her voice is still small, and more resigned than it is comforted. ]
... Okay.
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... It's okay to be sad. Logy didn't deserve that.
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She sighs. ]
I didn't want to have to be apart again.
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Again?
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You and Logy went through a lot together when he came to you, didn't you?
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It's not that big a deal or anything. The Logy here is from before it, too...
But back home, Logy went back to Central, eventually. And I was okay on my own, but... When he came back I just thought - I don't want to be apart again... That's all.
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... You must've missed him a lot while he went home, huh? You guys can't contact each other that easily.
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How long was he gone?
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And then the day he did, I wound up here. And the Logy here is younger, and he's my partner, so I should have... [ Escha trails off, losing steam on the thought because even as she's saying it, she knows it's impossible. She knows there wasn't anything she could do. But she still has to finish it. ]
I should have protected him. He always protected me, and now - here - he was my junior.
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he really wishes he could offer her some comfort. ]
... You can't linger on what ifs, Escha. It won't help.
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We can still help him going forward. It's not over yet. There's still time.
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... Okay. You're right.