ZERO;

[crashout]

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[crashout]

...now why would you think that? [A wry smile.] All of my memories sync up to some point, but split off based on the choices I've made. [Hah.]

Espers have access to all of their other selves' memories in the Morphogenic Field. Lucky us.

[fleuris]

... So there's a version of you out there that's accessing your morphing field for the first time and getting slammed with the memory of dying dozens of times.

[ that's rough, buddy. ]

[crashout]

Still not quite right. That version is still me. [It definitely is. Weird.] SHIFTing only happens if you're in fatal danger, which usually means your other self is dying. I guess I'm kind of the alpha version of myself? Akane would be able to explain it better.

[fleuris]

It's you, but you see him as a lesser you.

[ ... does he have a complex...? ]

... Wouldn't he see himself as the true version of... uh...

[ would him or you be most appropriate? ]

[crashout]

Maybe he does, but...I don't know. It's a whole moral dilemma about if we're killing other people or just parts of ourselves that I try not to put too much thought into. If you think too much, you realize you're subjecting someone to death and they won't even know why. In a way...yeah, that's shitty, but we need to be the ones to stay alive.

[fleuris]

It is shitty.

[ 'and you don't want to be that, so you run around looking for a way to justify it,' is what she wants to say, but doesn't. the entire thing is confusing enough for a bystander - she wouldn't be surprised if he was just doing shit and scrambling for a reason after the fact. ]

You're going to have to think about that some day, you know.

[crashout]

I've been thinking about it since the last jump I never completed, Zero. We exist, therefore we know we exist. There was no guarantee that the other versions of ourselves would know about every single thing in every other history that we needed to know to get out of the game. That's the thing.