I suppose you're right. [Easily agreed because it makes sense, of course, but at the same time he wonders if that's really true.] The worst part, I think, is that you never really get a chance to say anything to those people before they're gone.
[ . . . there's just a soft laugh at that. it lacks the usual bounce in higekiri's tone, as if he has been so thoroughly brought back down to earth. this is where the humans dwell, and this is what the humans feel.
he understands that now.]
At least...
I remembered to tell him I loved him. Though I wonder... should I have said it more?
Should I have said it again and again... Would that have kept the demons away?
[He still doesn't really know how to answer that either, and he frowns lightly as he looks at the screen again.]
I don't know if it would have kept the demons away. But I don't think it was wrong to have said it. Or to say it again anyway. We still don't understand why the demons choose their hosts, but...I'm pretty sure Hizamaru knew how much you cared about him before losing himself.
[ . . . he would love to be sure. higekiri will look back at the screen then - before letting it play. the song continues and he just finds himself sighing. when will he get to sing this duet again?]
... the demon says that my brother is still inside of him, howling and crying.
[he lets out a breath]
I cannot forgive it... for letting my brother suffer so.
We know the demons will say anything to get under our skin. But I don't think any of us would ever blame you for not forgiving it. I don't think even I can forgive it. [A pause.] Hizamaru is a friend, and I'm getting really tired of watching this happen to my friends.
So...if you're chosen tomorrow, I don't expect you to hold back.
...probably from the beginning. [It started with Carlos and it just started getting worse. There's a sympathetic smile though, because this is probably so unfamiliar to Higekiri and Junpei gets how confusing and horrible it is for a normal person.] ...sucks, doesn't it?
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[he disagrees quickly]
A demon wears my brother's face and even if he is trapped inside that body - for now, he is gone.
There is no point to these forms if we are not the ones wielding ourselves.
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he understands that now.]
At least...
I remembered to tell him I loved him. Though I wonder... should I have said it more?
Should I have said it again and again... Would that have kept the demons away?
[to show kindness, to be big-hearted]
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I don't know if it would have kept the demons away. But I don't think it was wrong to have said it. Or to say it again anyway. We still don't understand why the demons choose their hosts, but...I'm pretty sure Hizamaru knew how much you cared about him before losing himself.
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... the demon says that my brother is still inside of him, howling and crying.
[he lets out a breath]
I cannot forgive it... for letting my brother suffer so.
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So...if you're chosen tomorrow, I don't expect you to hold back.
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This feeling in my chest...
You've been carrying it all these weeks, haven't you?
[at least since escha]
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