he pulls up his clamshell to actually try to figure out who he's referring to - ]
Mm, I see. I'm rather unfamiliar with her... but it is worth investigating. I will try to ask Chuuya the next time that I see him then.
I've spoken with them both - Nightfeather first, and then Kagachi. At the very least, Nightfeather has told me he will inform me should the demons find him again, so you will have help in supporting him... but I can't say if I received any new information, only that Monika was the source and Nika... something... was afflicted twice. I hope to see him when he is feeling less ailed.
Kagachi asked me a question on if I would feel comfortable keeping secrets from my brother.... I wonder what he might say to me one day.
Sure. If you think it'll help, then it's okay. [There's a nod. He'll let the sword do his thing.]
I think Nikkari wouldn't mind seeing you after this weekend. He could use our support...he didn't know any of this would happen. [Which sucks. Thanks Monika.]
...what was the answer? If you don't mind me asking.
[To the first though:] Hizamaru tells me a lot about you. He wants to be as carefree as you are, sometimes. ...but I don't think it's the worst thing in the world to show him that even you're worried sometimes.
Eh? Will you make me keep secrets from my brother as well...? ... Hmm, the answer was that I wouldn't understand why someone wouldn't want the both of us, when we work well together. It is not as though he would ever do anything to make me unhappy...
But it also would not be the first time that I have completed secret orders without his realization.
[because hige is prone to just going off and doing things by himself too]
... Mm. I know. I will find a way to express it to him soon, hopefully. When I am not adding to his worries.
I'm not making you do anything. If it's a secret that I can't tell one of you, I won't tell either of you until the time is right. But I don't think it'll come to that anytime soon.
[He doesn't point out that even though they're swords, there's a possibility they could also become a host for the demon someday.] I'll keep that in mind. Are you sure something like that would add to his worries? I'd think talking to him about your own problems would help him sort his, but I don't know how other people handle stuff like this. [A beat.] Carlos used to get on both of us to say what we needed to say while there was time to say it. It's not a terrible idea.
Then that's fine - I don't mind either way. Please use your judgment well, but don't hesitate to call on us if there's something else you desire.
[they're swords? They're meant to be used??]
Mm... I suppose that is true - but at the very least, for now... He is a very reliable younger brother. If I show weakness in a time like this, he may put aside his own pain in order to try to alleviate mine. I am very lucky that way - but I wonder if it would be fair.
[...he doesn't seem thrilled with that answer, tilting his head to think of what to say.]
I feel like you both have the same problem and are approaching it in the same way. Feeling things that are less than positive, hiding your own pain and smiling for each other. I get why, but does that really help anybody...?
[It's rich coming from him who's prone to keeping things to himself until he explodes, but maybe other people should handle their problems in healthier ways.]
[he admits that, because hige is pretty good at communicating when he thinks it's important - ]
But right now... I think only one of us should really focus on our pain at a time - and mine will disappear once my brother is in better spirits as well. It's the responsibility of the elder sibling to look after the younger... I think.
[...he's only met two sibling pairs, and both of them seem to reflect that. Aoi did everything and went along with Akane's plans to make sure she was saved, took on things early in their childhood to make sure she was happy. Light did the same for Clover.
He doesn't entirely get it because he doesn't have close family members like that, but he can apply it elsewhere.]
You're probably right. [He can agree to that.] But it's also the elder sibling's responsibility to look after themselves, too, even if they aren't sure how. So...don't forget that, too.
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he pulls up his clamshell to actually try to figure out who he's referring to - ]
Mm, I see. I'm rather unfamiliar with her... but it is worth investigating. I will try to ask Chuuya the next time that I see him then.
I've spoken with them both - Nightfeather first, and then Kagachi. At the very least, Nightfeather has told me he will inform me should the demons find him again, so you will have help in supporting him... but I can't say if I received any new information, only that Monika was the source and Nika... something... was afflicted twice. I hope to see him when he is feeling less ailed.
Kagachi asked me a question on if I would feel comfortable keeping secrets from my brother.... I wonder what he might say to me one day.
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I think Nikkari wouldn't mind seeing you after this weekend. He could use our support...he didn't know any of this would happen. [Which sucks. Thanks Monika.]
...what do you mean by that, exactly?
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[nikkari....... it starts to click a little in hige's head to remember his name]
Nothing important yet... only that he asked if I'm capable of keeping secrets from my brother, if the situation arose.
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[To the first though:] Hizamaru tells me a lot about you. He wants to be as carefree as you are, sometimes. ...but I don't think it's the worst thing in the world to show him that even you're worried sometimes.
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Eh? Will you make me keep secrets from my brother as well...? ... Hmm, the answer was that I wouldn't understand why someone wouldn't want the both of us, when we work well together. It is not as though he would ever do anything to make me unhappy...
But it also would not be the first time that I have completed secret orders without his realization.
[because hige is prone to just going off and doing things by himself too]
... Mm. I know. I will find a way to express it to him soon, hopefully. When I am not adding to his worries.
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[He doesn't point out that even though they're swords, there's a possibility they could also become a host for the demon someday.] I'll keep that in mind. Are you sure something like that would add to his worries? I'd think talking to him about your own problems would help him sort his, but I don't know how other people handle stuff like this. [A beat.] Carlos used to get on both of us to say what we needed to say while there was time to say it. It's not a terrible idea.
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Then that's fine - I don't mind either way. Please use your judgment well, but don't hesitate to call on us if there's something else you desire.
[they're swords? They're meant to be used??]
Mm... I suppose that is true - but at the very least, for now... He is a very reliable younger brother. If I show weakness in a time like this, he may put aside his own pain in order to try to alleviate mine. I am very lucky that way - but I wonder if it would be fair.
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I feel like you both have the same problem and are approaching it in the same way. Feeling things that are less than positive, hiding your own pain and smiling for each other. I get why, but does that really help anybody...?
[It's rich coming from him who's prone to keeping things to himself until he explodes, but maybe other people should handle their problems in healthier ways.]
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[he admits that, because hige is pretty good at communicating when he thinks it's important - ]
But right now... I think only one of us should really focus on our pain at a time - and mine will disappear once my brother is in better spirits as well. It's the responsibility of the elder sibling to look after the younger... I think.
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He doesn't entirely get it because he doesn't have close family members like that, but he can apply it elsewhere.]
You're probably right. [He can agree to that.] But it's also the elder sibling's responsibility to look after themselves, too, even if they aren't sure how. So...don't forget that, too.
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but regardless higekiri at least seems to smile - happy to be thought of]
... mm. I won't overdo it. You don't have to worry about me.
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Good. That's all I can ask for. [He'll worry anyway.]
...should we take these back to Hizamaru now?