Good thing people are impatient. [He'll just go ahead and say it. But...he rubs the back of his neck.]
It's not always jumping straight to another certain death, but yeah. Another version of ourselves switches out to the history we were in. What you saw led to us jumping to another history where we were about to be gunned down for losing the dice roll. And that led to us protecting Akane and dying to save her while Carlos and I jumped to meet her in a different timeline.
... So there's a version of you out there that's accessing your morphing field for the first time and getting slammed with the memory of dying dozens of times.
Still not quite right. That version is still me. [It definitely is. Weird.] SHIFTing only happens if you're in fatal danger, which usually means your other self is dying. I guess I'm kind of the alpha version of myself? Akane would be able to explain it better.
Maybe he does, but...I don't know. It's a whole moral dilemma about if we're killing other people or just parts of ourselves that I try not to put too much thought into. If you think too much, you realize you're subjecting someone to death and they won't even know why. In a way...yeah, that's shitty, but we need to be the ones to stay alive.
[ 'and you don't want to be that, so you run around looking for a way to justify it,' is what she wants to say, but doesn't. the entire thing is confusing enough for a bystander - she wouldn't be surprised if he was just doing shit and scrambling for a reason after the fact. ]
You're going to have to think about that some day, you know.
I've been thinking about it since the last jump I never completed, Zero. We exist, therefore we know we exist. There was no guarantee that the other versions of ourselves would know about every single thing in every other history that we needed to know to get out of the game. That's the thing.
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[ but instead he got impatient and greedy and whoops! then his guts were on the floor. ]
So you jump from one certain death to another certain death - except it's another version of you that pays the price?
[ she's just trying to get the events in order ]
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It's not always jumping straight to another certain death, but yeah. Another version of ourselves switches out to the history we were in. What you saw led to us jumping to another history where we were about to be gunned down for losing the dice roll. And that led to us protecting Akane and dying to save her while Carlos and I jumped to meet her in a different timeline.
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[ defend your argument, jumpy. ]
But you can't jump without the risk of death either. [ hm ] So she died alone after you and Carlos kicked the buckets?
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I'd imagine so. I take it you don't inherit memories from the bodies you've jumped in to.
[ that would like. defeat the point ]
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Espers have access to all of their other selves' memories in the Morphogenic Field. Lucky us.
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[ that's rough, buddy. ]
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[ ... does he have a complex...? ]
... Wouldn't he see himself as the true version of... uh...
[ would him or you be most appropriate? ]
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[ 'and you don't want to be that, so you run around looking for a way to justify it,' is what she wants to say, but doesn't. the entire thing is confusing enough for a bystander - she wouldn't be surprised if he was just doing shit and scrambling for a reason after the fact. ]
You're going to have to think about that some day, you know.
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