[ when the memory fades, all kanesan can do is let out a heavy sigh. that is not a memory he appreciates being forced to relive. ]
You mean Hachisuka. [ it's not a question. his arms cross, eyes closing as he tries to find the words to explain. ] He is not of the Shinsengumi - but he wasn't wrong, was he? Moving as a team is how the Shinsengumi operated, and it's how we work best. I suppose it can be hard to remember that, when you're facing a loss like Nagasone's.
I guess he wasn't wrong, no. [But teamwork is still a dicey thing in and of itself.] Sometimes you want to take one for the team though and make sure whatever you're doing will benefit them even if it's hurting yourself. Isn't that still part of teamwork, if you think about it?
If you have a hard choice to make...I think I understand why you would want to do it yourself. Even if it's not the right one to make.
It is - I won’t argue with you on that. But I still stand by what I said before. [ he watches junpei carefully as he continues. ] The team that can rely on each other when things get difficult is the team that works best. I could never say so to Nagasone himself, but I believe that to be true.
He takes care of us as well as Kondo Isami did with our masters, but all the same… A burden is harder to bear alone, isn’t it?
Not to be contradictory, but it depends on the burden, I think. It becomes a question of what will hurt your teammates less, letting them shoulder it with you or doing it to protect them. But I get it. A team that can rely on each other means a team that knows what to do next and how to prepare for situations where the burden's too heavy.
Sometimes I just think teams are harder to manage than managing yourself. That's all.
Oh, undoubtedly. To be an effective commander, you must understand your teammates well enough to know where best to use them and where not to use them at all, who they work best with or not, what motivates them or what discourages them most. There are many things to consider as a leader of many, as opposed to leading only yourself, where you will know your own strengths and weaknesses well enough to survive or die trying.
[ that's a little extreme but okay ]
It isn't an easy skill to learn. But I think you are beginning to understand what it means, to be a true leader.
...should I be taking that as a compliment? [This is said after a long pause because he's definitely taking all of that into consideration. Does he know anything about being a leader? Maybe not, but he knows...that maybe he wants to be.
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You mean Hachisuka. [ it's not a question. his arms cross, eyes closing as he tries to find the words to explain. ] He is not of the Shinsengumi - but he wasn't wrong, was he? Moving as a team is how the Shinsengumi operated, and it's how we work best. I suppose it can be hard to remember that, when you're facing a loss like Nagasone's.
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If you have a hard choice to make...I think I understand why you would want to do it yourself. Even if it's not the right one to make.
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It is - I won’t argue with you on that. But I still stand by what I said before. [ he watches junpei carefully as he continues. ] The team that can rely on each other when things get difficult is the team that works best. I could never say so to Nagasone himself, but I believe that to be true.
He takes care of us as well as Kondo Isami did with our masters, but all the same… A burden is harder to bear alone, isn’t it?
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Sometimes I just think teams are harder to manage than managing yourself. That's all.
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[ that's a little extreme but okay ]
It isn't an easy skill to learn. But I think you are beginning to understand what it means, to be a true leader.
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The tease is easier though.]
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Maybe so. Ask me again in a few weeks, eh? It'll be something to think about, until then.
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...I should keep going to check on some of the others. But I'll see you later?