Nikkari. [And this time it's a serious sort of tone, one that isn't playing around but rather one that's a little uncertain.] That's definitely not an answer.
My first experiences with somebody else don't exactly negate my firsts with you, you know. [He frowns a bit.] ...so don't think about it like I'm obligated to do anything, I guess.
[ ... he almost tries to reach out to take junpei's hand before remembering his arms are still shackled. hm. maybe he should ask for the key after all... ]
Would I ever say that? [The grin on his face says that yes, he would, because he sucks. He accepts the nudge though with a little nose-bump to the top of Nikkari's head.] What'd you do with the key?
[ and nikkari rolls his eyes a little, the gesture accompanied by an intentional raising of his head to bonk junpei's nose. jerk. ]
It should be in the bag under the couch.
[ the duffel bag they all arrived with, he means... but if junpei goes down to look, he'll find that nikkari's started something of a collection since then. ]
[He's laughing a little at the nose-bonk before he slides off of the couch and onto the floor. He's going to grab the bag but...what the hell else is under here?]
[ i hate that i had to consult my spreadsheet for this, but,
inside the bag, junpei will find the following: a key, a ball gag, a riding crop, anal beads, a bottle of antidote, an unmarked blu-ray disc, a bottle of bleach, a box of matches, some salt-filled condoms, and the holy water shoes. ]
I can still put these anal beads in your mouth. [There is a ball gag literally right there and yet!!] Also the answer's no, I don't really get off on that sort of thing.
It's not exactly that. [The cuffs get dropped to the floor, farewell.] Some people are into that sort of thing and...y'know. Different levels of pain and stuff.
[Damn be patient? He's getting up and settling on the couch again so they can cuddle except he seems to be pondering himself. That. Hm. Yeah.]
...are you trying to tell me you get off on cutting through people? [Like. He's trying to follow here and he's not exactly judging but he's considering.]
Haha... this is why I said it was hard. [ beat ] To explain, of course.
[ kill him ]
But that is the nature of a sword, isn't it? We were forged for battle, and with battle comes bloodshed. I may not always enjoy it, but I cannot deny that there are times where it is satisfying. Not in a carnal way, necessarily... but in a way that makes me feel like I've fulfilled my purpose.
[ ... with all that being said, he turns to face junpei again to study his reaction. he totally understands if all That turns out to be a huge turnoff. ]
[The look on his face says that he's trying to understand as best as he can but that it's a struggle for someone who isn't a blade. He's pondering over those words and how it must be to go from a weapon to a human and be stuck in between.
It's like a core instinct, he thinks. He can understand that much.]
Fulfilling your purpose is a human thing too, believe it or not. That's the entire point of having and reaching goals no matter what. Sometimes you do things you aren't always proud of to reach those goals and feel like you're useful.
Something like that, right? Knowing your place in the world.
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...what's that supposed to mean?
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Come on, I'm serious. What're you talking about?
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... Mm. I was merely teasing, you know. I meant I'd accept whatever first experiences of yours that you were willing to give me.
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Still sure you want to stay like that? [Nikkari...] I don't mind the stains. They probably won't really transfer.
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As long as you do not say "I told you so."
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It should be in the bag under the couch.
[ the duffel bag they all arrived with, he means... but if junpei goes down to look, he'll find that nikkari's started something of a collection since then. ]
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inside the bag, junpei will find the following: a key, a ball gag, a riding crop, anal beads, a bottle of antidote, an unmarked blu-ray disc, a bottle of bleach, a box of matches, some salt-filled condoms, and the holy water shoes. ]
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...Nikkari. [...] Please never use any of this on me for the rest of our time here.
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Haha... not even remotely interested?
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[But he drops it and grabs the key before moving to try and unlock the handcuffs.]
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[ is junpei still sure he wants to free nikkari,,, ]
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Mm... I suppose it naturally goes against human nature to derive pleasure from pain.
[ meanwhile, swords, ]
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I understand that. But for us... hm. Well, I wouldn't want to speak for my peers, so, for myself...
[ here he trails off a little, deeply ruminating on what to say. ]
It's difficult to explain the way it feels to cut through the flesh and bone of your enemies in a way that humans might understand.
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...are you trying to tell me you get off on cutting through people? [Like. He's trying to follow here and he's not exactly judging but he's considering.]
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[ kill him ]
But that is the nature of a sword, isn't it? We were forged for battle, and with battle comes bloodshed. I may not always enjoy it, but I cannot deny that there are times where it is satisfying. Not in a carnal way, necessarily... but in a way that makes me feel like I've fulfilled my purpose.
[ ... with all that being said, he turns to face junpei again to study his reaction. he totally understands if all That turns out to be a huge turnoff. ]
Does that make sense?
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It's like a core instinct, he thinks. He can understand that much.]
Fulfilling your purpose is a human thing too, believe it or not. That's the entire point of having and reaching goals no matter what. Sometimes you do things you aren't always proud of to reach those goals and feel like you're useful.
Something like that, right? Knowing your place in the world.
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